a wide world

little fellowOver break I watched The Hobbit: The Battle of the Five Armies.

Although much of JRR Tolkien’s works have spiritual undertones, I was particularly struck by the imagery of this movie. Smaug the great dragon has been killed. The people of Laketown gather in need of shelter, food, and clothing. Thorin Oakenshield, once a great leader, inhabits Lonely Mountain unwilling to share even one piece of gold.

Dwalin:  “You sit here, in these vast halls, with a crown upon your head and yet you are lesser now than you have ever been.”

“You cannot see what you have become.” 

Kili: “I will not hide, when others fight our battles for us.”

Of course, he comes around to be the great leader we all knew he was, abandoning wealth and power. Redemption. 

 

And as Gandolf leaves Bilbo with the powerful ring… “You really are just a little fellow, in a wide world.” Perspective.

 

I don’t know if I was all to ready for this new year. Even so, I know who I want to be.

 

I want to be brave and not hide. 

I want to love in close proximity… to do that, I know I must be quieter, stiller, gentler. 

I want to kneel because I know I am just a little fellow in a wide world. I know I need God. 

In this new year, what do you hope for? 

 

 

 

 

 

If I go one step further…

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Sometimes, we revisit The Lord of the Rings Trilogy.  Our son has become quite enthralled with the journey of the beloved hobbits.

 

Two nights ago, The Fellowship of the Ring played in the background of my writing.

Samwise Gamgee and Frodo were just beginning their journey out of the shire.

 

Samwise stops. “If I take one step further, I’ll be the furthest I’ve ever been from home.”

You see, hobbits never ventured very far from home. With a friendship that rivaled any great fictional duo, Samwise and Frodo stuck together on an epic journey. Sometimes, the adventure took them to very, very dark spaces, where all hope looked lost.

 

I feel a little like Sam right now. “Oh, God, if I take one step further… I’m in territory I’ve never been before.”

I’m frightened of failing. I’m frightened of what it will cost me. I’m tired, it’s uphill. Sometimes, my heart moves into those dark spaces.

 

Frodo contemplated turning back…

Sam: Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn’t. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something.

Frodo: What are we holding onto, Sam?

Sam: That there’s some good in this world, Mr. Frodo… and it’s worth fighting for.

 

And at the end of the Return of the King…

Frodo: I am glad you are here with me. Here at the end of all things, Sam.

I want God to say that me someday. “I’m glad you are here with me. Here at the end of all things.”

 

Don’t turn back. God is worth fighting for. His people are worth fighting for.