hope. hope. hope.

HOPE

The sun persists in rising, so I make myself stand- 

Suzanne Collins Hunger Games Trilogy

I watched Catching Fire over Christmas break. My favorite part of the films is Katniss Everdeen, her face. She stands tall and does what she needs to do, even when it is the very last thing she longs to do. Even in her imperfection, she becomes a beacon of hope.

Primrose Everdeen: Since the last games, something is different. I can see it. 

Katniss Everdeen: What can you see? 

Primrose Everdeen: Hope. 

 

I had a wonderful Christmas break, but my heart missed About Proximity.

The break proved a needful rest for my mind. I learned a lesson that I have not been very great at taking seriously. We are often too hard on ourselves.

The expectations that we map out for ourselves can be very unkind and quite impossible.

I did that to myself. I often do that to myself. Then, I find myself laying in a puddle of dashed dreams, disappointment in all I am not, and exhaustion.

This new year, I am releasing impossible expectations.

I am not a woman who can do it all. 

But, I am a woman who can do something, even small. I can be an imperfect Mom, wife, daughter, friend, paraprofessional, writer, woman of God, servant. These things I do will not always be perfection, but they will be good and enough.

That promise offers my heart great hope.

 

Something is different this time…

I am trusting God that my imperfection will be enough. I am praying God will honor my desire to do my best, love completely, and ask for help.

I want to offer hope. I want to offer hope with you this new year.

May About Proximity offer you encouragement as you seek to place yourself in the proximity of renewal. I was going to type all the things I have planned for 2014, but then I decided not to. I am laying this year in God’s hands. Those expectations I press on myself, I am laying them down.

I am so very, very thankful for you.

Proximity would not be the same without you. Thank you.

 

Tell me about your Christmas season. What are you looking forward to in this new year? What unrealistic expectation will you be laying down?

19 thoughts on “hope. hope. hope.

  1. Someone shared with me a picture that helped me so much just yesterday.
    Picture God way at the top, maybe represented by a cloud. You standing on the ground below.
    Picture a line extended from you to him with a dot somewhere on that line to indicate your performance in any area at any given time.
    Sometimes you will have a dot very close to the top of your head sometimes farther up
    BUT even on really good days our dot will never get close to God’s perfection.
    There will always be a gap between us and that cloud where God resides in our picture!!
    So our part is little! Just as you said Lisa! We do what we can and God takes care of the rest!!
    Takes off any pressure we put on ourselves because God’s got it!
    He makes all thing new and works out everything for our good and His glory!!
    Hurray God!

    And how thankful we can be that OUR PERFORMANCE DOES NOT DICTATE OUR VALUE!!
    It has nothing to do with our value! We are valuable just because we belong to him! We are his little girls!! His children!! Hurray Daddy God!! 😀

  2. Hi Lisa and the About Proximity Community,
    Glad to meet with you all again! I’ve had a great Christmas break. We traveled down south to spend Christmas with my in-laws. It was great! They also treated us to a show – Cavalia – with horses. Amazing!
    Looking forward to your posts, Lisa! Let’s limp along together resting in His strong arms! 🙂 Hooray! A New Year!

    • Diane! I’m so glad you had a great Christmas season. Now that sounds like an amazing show. I’ve never heard of it! I can’t wait to rest in his strong arms with all of you! Lots of love 🙂

  3. Welcome back! I missed visiting this blog. It’s good to see you ( and everyone else) back again. Hubby had the week off and it was really, really, really nice having him with us. I also loved that movie!!!

  4. Oh I’ve missed you friend. What beautiful words to return with. You do give offer up so much encouragement and hope here. I’m grateful for you; blessed by you. What am I looking forward to??? My husband returning home!!! But while I wait for his return, I look forward to pursuing God like never before.
    Much love,
    Beth

    • I’ve missed you too. You have a huge looking forward. I feel very blessed and encouraged to follow your journey, trust and faith in this road you walk. Love to you.

  5. I was away from my blog over Christmas and found I missed it, too. It’s exciting to come back at it feeling refreshed, renewed and with a new sense of excitement and purpose.

    Love your thoughts today! May your 2014 be awesome and blessed. 🙂

  6. Happy New year! This is refreshing, and as you say, hopeful. Artists and movies are great that way. I have caught more than a few fellow parishioners glumly entering church to face their inadequacies and asked them, “Why do you not let yourself see the beauty you give us?” Let us give to one another this year.

    • Happy New Year. Thank you for your insightfulness. You have a great way with words. I love that, each person does offer such beauty. That purpose is so life-giving.

  7. Thanks for your transparency, Lisa. What a genuine post. I was away from my blog for a couple weeks, and it was refreshing. I’m looking forward to moving forward with it.

    I totally understand the self-imposed expectations. I do that to myself more often than I care to admit. Good for you in laying them down. I’m working to do some of that this year too. I’m looking forward to seeing all that God has for me. I don’t know what that will look like, but I know it will grow me closer to Him. 🙂

  8. “Those expectations I press on myself, I am laying them down.” — oh, yes, I get that. a long time ago I realized I couldn’t do it anymore. The expectations and the pressure. It’s good to have goals, but I find the release is so much sweeter, more hopeful. Bless you, friend. Your words are hopeful..

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