When I was asked to do a guest post on About Proximity, I had a couple of ideas of what I might like to write about. But when I tried to write – I couldn’t. I couldn’t think of the words. Then I decided I need to just start. When I “just started” God gave me what I needed to finish. There are other parts of my life where I need to just start.
A friend from my youth group was talking to me once about how powerful prayer is. As this conversation progressed, she told me that, especially in a public school, it is important to pray WITH people not just for them. During the school year, there were many times where I felt called to pray with this person or that person. But when I would try to think of the words to pray, I backed out because I couldn’t think of them. I needed to just start and let God take it from there.
In my life there is a vicious cycle – the vicious cycle of sleep deprivation. I can never seem to get caught up on sleep. As a result, before bed when I normally read my devotions, I am too tired. I think in a moment like this God would want me to just start. If I were to just start reading and absorbing my devotions, HE would give me the strength and energy I need to do it.
When I feel called by God to do something out of my comfort zone like praying with someone at school, reaching out to people I don’t know, or doing my devotions when I really don’t feel like it, I usually think too much about it; I end up talking myself out of it with excuses.
I sin and fall short of the glory of God – I don’t always do what He calls me to do because it sometimes is not what I want to do.
But I know deep down in my heart that if I just start HE will always give me what I need to finish.
Ellie Baumann is a junior in high school and attends Zeeland West. She enjoys knitting, playing piano, babysitting, rollerblading with her sisters, and most of all, spending time with her family. She has a pretty big family… “I don’t know what I would do without them!” You can read Ellie’s previous guest post about Guatemala here and Hope here.